Guess what?! We're going to have another baby!! :)
I've planned to blog all about it since I kept the blog up to date with Kylee and Gunnar's pregnancy and time has just gotten away from me. I mean really, my last blog was over two years ago. We are just pure busy these days with the kids getting older and us being involved in more activities, and with my business, Sew Cute by Emma. I have been diligent about keeping my Etsy shop up to date this year and it is definitely paying off!
ANYWAY...we have not used any prevention in about 3 years and although I've taken many tests (mostly because I liked to convince myself there was a possibility of being pregnant) I never was. This was a totally different experience from our others. We conceived all of our other children so quickly. Hunter happened the first month, our miscarriage happened 3 months after I stopped taking the pill, and then Kylee happened 3 months after that. And Gunnar, we weren't even trying, since Kylee was only 6 months old! So for us to go three years without using anything and not conceive, it was definitely different!! It gave me such perspective into friends' lives who struggle with infertility. It's such a different hurt when it's totally out of your control. It really helped show/remind me though that God is in control and I can trust Him with our family size. If I really believe He is a big enough God to hold the world in His hands, control our finances, big decisions, etc, why can't I trust Him with our family size? Why do I feel that I have the right to say, "oh yes, God, I know you can handle my finances, and where we should work/live, but I know best when it comes to how many children we should have." The Bible says over and over that children are a blessing from the Lord. And sure, if He wants to, he can make anyone conceive, no matter what kind of prevention they're using, but why would God give someone a blessing if they're not being obedient? ...stepping off my soapbox...although this is my blog, so it's the best place for that, right?
So anyway, we certainly weren't "trying," but we had had conversations that if the Lord did decide to bless us again, we would take it. Well, when we bought our house last June, we sold all of our baby stuff! (Isn't that how it works?) It had been 2.5 years of us not conceiving and we saw no point in keeping/moving it. I had come to a point where I didn't think we'd have another one. Even though my heart wanted another one so badly.
Anyway, fast forward to the end of February. My cycles certainly aren't regular. They can range anywhere from 30-40 days, but they do average to about 34 days. Around 31 days or so, I'd been having the pulling/punching feeling in my lower abdomen sporadically. I do get that now before I start though, so I didn't think much of it, because it usually means I'll start within a day or two, but it kept on for days. By day 33-34 I started to wonder, because of its consistently and intensity. I bought an 88¢ test the evening of the 34th just so I could see a negative result and move on with my life. I woke up about 5am on day 35, which was February 23, because I had to pee. I thought about taking the test but wasn't up for the disappointment so I didn't take it. I woke again at 8am and decided to take it so I could put the wondering out of my mind and know I was going to start. I took it, then looked at the directions to be reminded of how long I was supposed to wait before reading the results. In about 10 seconds, I found my answer (3 minutes.) I couldn't help it and I glanced at the test. I saw the faintest of lines, and thought my eyes were tricking me. But the more I looked at it, the darker the line got. Within 20-30 seconds, there was no question it was a positive.
I walked in my bedroom and just kept repeating, "oh my goodness, oh my goodness." I just couldn't believe it! We had co-op at noon, which meant we wouldn't see daddy until dinner time and I just knew I couldn't wait that long to tell him. I had enough patience (even though my hands wouldn't stop shaking!) to whip up a shirt for Gunnar, and we went to Toyota to show daddy his new shirt. When we got there, I took his sweatshirt off, Greg read it, and just had a look of shock. He said, "are you serious?"
And I said, "yes, and I brought the test in case you didn't believe me." Haha. We told the kids right then too and they were so excited!
Greg said he didn't care who I told, so I pretty much told the whole world! haha. At co-op in the sign language class I help out in, the teacher was passing out conversation hearts for an activity, and this is the one that she just happened to give me. I absolutely loved it. :)
It's been 4 weeks since we found out, and it has been so fun with older kids. They are so interested in the daily development of the baby and ask every day what's happening. My What to Expect app has a weekly video update with the development and Kylee wakes me up in Tuesdays to ask to watch the video!! Greg is still adjusting to the idea, but I know he will come around. :) I can't wait to hear the heartbeat (hopefully next week!) and definitely for the ultrasound because I know that will help him get more used to the idea too.
Greg thinks it's a boy. I did too until about last week, because I just think, so far at least, that this pregnancy has been more like Kylee's than the boys'. Time will tell though! :)
Stay tuned for weekly updates, although I won't be offended if you don't stick around. I'm mostly just blogging for myself. It's been awesome to go back to previous pregnancy posts and compare this one to Kylee and Gunnar's.